Have you ever wished that life would end? That experience is not foreign to God’s people. There is company to be found in your wrestling within the pages of Scripture. There are several people in the Bible like Jonah, Job, and Elijah, who cried out to God wanting death more than life when life became too much to bear.
God’s Holy Spirit recorded their stories to give you hope.
God himself has also felt your distress. Jesus, God’s Son, knelt one midnight, so deep in anguish that he sweat blood, anticipating the emotional and physical pain that lay ahead (Luke 22:44). He bore immeasurable pain for you, and by experience he bore it with you. He was God-forsaken on the cross, so you might know God’s nearness (Ephesians 2:12-13).
He waded through anguish so that anguish might not have the last word in your life if you will believe in him. Jesus suffered for your sins so that through believing in him, you might have hope and new life—a reconciled relationship with God filled with purpose and meaning.
Jesus deeply understands your pain and wants to walk with you through it if you’ll only ask him. God doesn’t just sympathize with your feelings (Hebrews 2:17; Hebrews 4:15). He also wants you to talk to him about them. He welcomes you to come cry out to him—to direct your voice to him, where you have kept your feelings silenced (Psalm 62:8).
Today, you can deal with your suicidal thoughts, instead of letting them deal with you. You can open the Bible and hear how God answered many others in their distress. You can cry out to Jesus, asking for his hand to hold through these dark days, and for him to light up your heart and your way (2 Corinthians 4:6; John 8:12).
Finally, listen to what God has said to those who trust in him: Isaiah 43:1-4a. Call upon the LORD for his help today and believe that this promise belongs to you (Acts 2:21).
But now thus says the Lord,
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name, you are mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
and the flame shall not consume you.
For I am the Lord your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
I give Egypt as your ransom,
Cush and Seba in exchange for you.
Because you are precious in my eyes,
and honored, and I love you…” (ESV)